SUMMER SOUNDZZZ

I think Mad Decent is gonna provide the soundtrack to 2010! nothing but goood stuffs.
Please dont forget to hit stop on the music player on the bottom of the bloggie! Enjoy!





Bosco Delrey-Evil Lives by maddecent

Boy 8-Bit - Bulbs burn out ( Obi Blanche Remix)
Boy 8-Bit-Bulbs Burn Out (Obi Blanche Remix) by maddecent

love and passion do pay off in the end

Apartment Flowers.
Luvallie.
My Dad in Hawaii.

I'm sure you can all tell by now how much I love Polaroid film. I just received an email update from the "impossible Project" that all the hard work, passion and love that went into the original "save Polaroid" project has come to a HAPPY ending. The fight for Polaroid's extinction was SUCESSFUL!

"You will learn all the details about Impossible's new film and its purchase availabilities in another Newsletter scheduled for this week. For now - celebrate, enjoy and view all the informative eye candy online." - The Impossible Project

YAY!!!! my Heart is singing!

here is a link to my original post 2 years ago.

http://pandahead-shootsstuff.blogspot.com/2008/02/polaroids-are-root-of-my-love-of.html

HOORAYY!!!!

Fight for what you love and it will pay off in the end.

Music is love.

I don't have the words to explain how this song makes me feel...but it looks like someone else has explained it perfectly..

"This particular song evokes so many things in me. I will try to put words to them…When I shut down feeling to avoid pain, I also miss out on beauty, love, gratitude. The song makes me feel again. It puts me in a place that is in the very center of myself. It makes me breathe. It melts away all the illusions of life and for the moments the melody rises and falls, only simple truth is left. It makes me remember I am a dancer, by moving my spirit so much it moves my body despite the cage I’ve put my art in. It flows through me like the sweetest, kindest breeze against my skin. It embodies the essence of what I want the child growing in my womb to always remember, to always know. That indescribable connection to something beyond this world. That thing that has no words, no explanation. The thing music in it’s highest form has the humble honor of being able to communicate.

Esthero, thank you for being a part of my journey by sharing yours. Thank you for reminding me by not forgetting. Thank you for leading by example, for being yourself, so I could find myself here listening to this, healing, loving, and “in joy” ing life." - Natty B

this song has given me the bravery to use my voice again, to feel again.... 2010, i'm ready.

I urge you to go to the link at the bottom and listen to it at www.estheroinprogress.com

i’m a black mermaid
from the bottom of the sea
i will teach you how to love me
into greatness i will lead you
’cause i’m a black mermaid
nothing rarer you will find
i am here for you to love me
i’ve been here for all o’ time

and i will wait for you to see me and to understand
that a woman can restore the soul of any broken man
if you can look beyond the waves and just believe in me…..
i am the lighthouse standing strong atop the rocks and sand

’cause i’m a black mermaid
from the bottom of the sea
i will teach you how to love me
into greatness i will lead you

and i’ve spent most of my life deep down inside myself
i’ve dreamt about the possibility of someone else
who could see the things i’ve seen and steal away with me
into the darkness we could fade because we know ourselves
and i’m his black mermaid
from the bottom of the sea
i will teach you how to love me
into greatness i will lead you
yeah i’m a black mermaid
from the bottom of the sea
i will teach you how to love me
into greatness i will lead you

and i’ve spent most of my life deep down inside myself
i’ve dreamt about the possibility of someone else
who could see the things i’ve seen and steal away with me
into the darkness we could fade because we LOVE ourselves

and i’m his black mermaid
he thinks i’m beautiful
yeah i’m his black mermaid
he thinks i’m beautiful
i am beautiful

(All the dark horses and all the good men,
won’t you come put me back together again?)

i am beautiful.

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honesty

2010 has arrived with an unrelenting force. Its been a great blessing to be surrounded with so much hope and anticipation of upcoming abundance. I am trying to keep a smile on my face and in my heart. Today was a day I couldn't help but be a little melancholy. The weather has proven to make it a little difficult to maintain my smile.

Most days I cannot help but be enthusiastic of whats to come. its only when i start to get a grasp of how much time really does zoom by at lightning speed and i can't help but feel a little consumed by it. I don't have the words (or bravery right) now to share what is really bothering me so instead what i really want to do is pray for strength. This is something that i have learned from 2009...life is always gonna happen. the pain, the laughter, the sorrow, the joy. all i can wish for is strength for the hard times and the ability to be present for the good.

I have been drowning myself in the sounds of some beautiful voices for therapy tonight. Esthero of course, zee avi and corrine bailey rae. There is something about all of their voices that slay me every single time. You can hear a sweet honesty there. Its calming.

Here is a couple links. don't forget to scroll down and stop the music player on the bottom.

P.S

I love you Lucas. You are my light. thank you for your love.

<3>

Baltimore is Beautiful.

for my heterosexual life partner, crystal!

my best friend crystal is like the magical rainbow sunshine panda in my life. hahaah
this one is for you hon!

The stars aligned for me PANDAHEAD is now known internationally!

I originally posted a bloggie about this back in august 2008 about a contest i submitted my work to....

OG Post

I got home yesterday with an info notice from DHL and was 100% sure it was a letter from a creditor. I signed the info notice so that DHL can leave the package in my mailbox. I got home today and noticed a book was stuffed into my mailbox. It is a published FIRST EDITION of the photo catalog of a series that is called MAKE HISTORY.

I've spent a lot of time tonight screaming and crying with joy.

For some reason whenever I win something big I find out last minute! HAHAHA

The package came with a letter stating that my photo made the shortlist of 101 out of 16,109 entries. It has been in an international exhibit that has been touring Europe!

Please follow the link below:

Make History First Edition

it will provide you with more info and an awesome video of world renowned photo editors that made the decision. (go to 1:30 of the video and you will see my photo)

I am particularly honored to be a part of this series because I've always strived to capture honesty and real life and have always tried to tell a story; this series captures all the pain, joy, spunkiness and hope of 2008.

I urge you to pick up a camera and document the beauty around you.  Make History  is now accepting entries for it's second edition. 

**special thanks to Molly for being such a good subject.